What a train wreck

I know I haven’t posted in ages but I just wanted to say that she left me permenantly. She took off with another guy and isn’t coming back. I don’t know if I should be surprised or not thou. She was never really happy. I couldn’t and wouldn’t give her the freedom in the relationship that she wanted. She wanted to basically do what or who she wanted when she wanted. nuf’ said and this blog is closed FOREVER

Newest Update – It’s Good :)

Well as you can see, it’s been a few months since I’ve posted. Things have taken a turn for the better. We have layed everything out on the table and taken care of all the issues. We are doing great. Our love life couldn’t be better and our love is growing stronger everyday. I knew my patience would pay off. I’ll try to update more a bit later

Update to my last blog post

Well I was a bit wrong. I thought I knew everything and I didn’t. I found out that she is in love with another man. She did admit it to me but she says that kissing is all that has happened. She said that there was nothing else and that it was because till she knew what was going to happen with us that she didn’t want it to go further. I’ll update you as I can. Bye for now

Well she kind of moved out

My wife did pack her bags and leave, but, it’s not as bad as it sounds. She will be with me on the weekends and on wednesday nights. I guess I can deal with this so that she can get things worked out. She has talked to her doctor about getting a therapist and has an appointment on Monday to talk to her. I hope that this is what she needs. Just so people don’t get the wrong idea, it’s nothing I personally did to her. She has sooooooo much on her plate as far as stress, issues with certian people and medical issues that I’m not really surprised about this. We will work everything out I’m sure. Till then I will love her with all my heart and be there when she needs me.

Things took a turn for the worst

Well I thought things were going great but I was wrong. Things are far from great. My wife wants a seperation. She says that it is only so she can get her head straight and that she just doesn’t know what is wrong. She say that all she knows is that she isn’t happy. Now I would normally be fine with that but there is only one problem. If she leaves then there is only one thing that will change and that is me. Think of it this way. A house is a house is a house. It is only her and I there now. The kids are all gone.  So if she leaves then the only thing that changes really is that I won’t be there. Now she tells me that It isn’t me that it is just her needing to figure things out. ok that would be fine if it wasn’t for the fact that I would be the only thing that is no longer in the equation. I have never stopped her from doing anything. If she seeks counciling, which she wants to do, then thats fine and shouldn’t matter where she lives. I don’t know maybe I’m making more out of this that I should be but there are other things that tell me that our life together is over and she just isn’t telling me for fear of hurting me and breaking my heart. Things such as a simple I Love You and there is also the sex thing. Now I know that sex isn’t the most important thing but if you knew my wife and I then you would see this point of view. I have been getting the impression lately that I am not exciting my wife. I really think that I am turning her off to be honest. I think that she is getting revolted by me and I don’t mind saying that it hurts BAD!! I don’t know. I’ll try to keep you updated on the situation. For now she is still home and I hope it stays that way. (lol who am I kidding? It won’t)

It’s been a long time since I posted

I have been spending all my time either at work or with my beautiful wife. I’m popping in to say that we went away for our anniversary and it was wonderful. There is no doubt that my wife and I are going to be just fine. I love her with all my heart and that will never change. 8 years as of yesterday and 26 years together.

Purrrfect Picture for my kitten (wife)

Rhonda likes her cocktails and I call her Kitten so I thought this was appropriote

I Wish I Were

I wish I were dancing
Floating across the floor
She is wearing a gown
I, a suit
The music, sweet and melodious
Finds me twirling in a fantasy land
Filled with happiness
Laughter
Love
Her warm embrace
Tickles my senses
And my heart surges forward
And then
As I am looking into her eyes
Searching every corner of her perfect soul
I stop
And realize that I’m not in a ballroom
Not in a suit
I’m just standing, staring into her eyes
And I’m in Love.

Need To Figure Out Something For Rhonda & I

I need to spend some quality time with Rhonda. Being at home with the grandkids is nice but I need to setup something so that Rhonda and I can get away for awhile and spend some REAL quality time together. It is killing me to have to share our time with everyone else. All I want is a weekend alone with her. Maybe I can sort out a weekend down the cape or even a local hotel just so we can be alone. I need and desire this time right now. Rhonda if you are reading this, then your thoughts would be great on the idea.

This Weekend Is Going To Suck

Friday after work Rhonda is going out with her friend Missie for the evening and won’t be home till late. Then I get to spend a bit of time with her on Saturday morning before I drop her off at the train station so she can go to work. She will then be spending the night over her sister’s house because she has a shower to go to on Sunday afternoon at 11am for a brunch. She then has to be at work at 3pm on sunday and won’t be home till late on sunday night. This means that I will only get to see her on Satuday before she goes to work. What a sucky weekend it will be.