Things took a turn for the worst

Well I thought things were going great but I was wrong. Things are far from great. My wife wants a seperation. She says that it is only so she can get her head straight and that she just doesn’t know what is wrong. She say that all she knows is that she isn’t happy. Now I would normally be fine with that but there is only one problem. If she leaves then there is only one thing that will change and that is me. Think of it this way. A house is a house is a house. It is only her and I there now. The kids are all gone.  So if she leaves then the only thing that changes really is that I won’t be there. Now she tells me that It isn’t me that it is just her needing to figure things out. ok that would be fine if it wasn’t for the fact that I would be the only thing that is no longer in the equation. I have never stopped her from doing anything. If she seeks counciling, which she wants to do, then thats fine and shouldn’t matter where she lives. I don’t know maybe I’m making more out of this that I should be but there are other things that tell me that our life together is over and she just isn’t telling me for fear of hurting me and breaking my heart. Things such as a simple I Love You and there is also the sex thing. Now I know that sex isn’t the most important thing but if you knew my wife and I then you would see this point of view. I have been getting the impression lately that I am not exciting my wife. I really think that I am turning her off to be honest. I think that she is getting revolted by me and I don’t mind saying that it hurts BAD!! I don’t know. I’ll try to keep you updated on the situation. For now she is still home and I hope it stays that way. (lol who am I kidding? It won’t)

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~ by Mark on July 14, 2008.